Riddles

There are moments when I do not think of him,

Not at all, not a thought.

    Moments where my breath is not seizing in the middle of my chest,

        Moments where I am not suffocating from the inside out

    Moments where I do not feel the beating of my dying heart,

        Moments where that gaping hole is not ripping my soul apart

 

Moments of chaotic peace

Moments of captivating hysteria

 

    There are moments when I do not think of him,

    Not at all, not a thought.

        Moments like this moment

        When I am drowning in my thoughts;

        Thoughts of not thinking

About him at all.

 

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Sway

~Cue Music~

Right Foot: Step Forward
Left Foot: Step Forward
Right Foot: Side Step
Left Foot: Side Step
Right Foot: Step Backwards
Left Foot: Step Backwards

Twirl out 
Twirl in
Embrace
Sway

Her touch; Paralyzing..
Her breath; Suffocating..
Her smell; Intoxicating..

One minute left; oh no!
Not enough, No.. I need more; Fear..

Quick, take it all in; Desperation..
Stroke her face: Familiar.. Perfection..

I want her..

I whisper.. “I Love You“..
No reply; Nerves..

A whispered chuckle; Self-Concious..
A numbing stare; Immobilized..

I Know“.. 
Confident, but humbly, whispered..

Brain activity; Gone..
Heartbeat; Gone..

Peace.. Calm.. I am finally home..

Twirl out
Twirl in
Embrace
Sway

Right Foot: Step Forward
Left Foot: Step Forward
Right Foot: Side Step
Left Foot: Side Step
Right Foot: Step Backwards
Left Foot: Step Backwards

~Music Fades~

If Only

If only I could reach out my hand,

Find your fingertips at the end of my touch.

 

I would run my finger across the edges of your hand,

Retrace the lines that have long comforted me.

 

I would lock them away in my secret memory bank,

Never to be forgotten.. Not ever;

 

Interlace our fingers in an overdue embrace,

And watch as the spaces that keep us apart;

 

Dissolve away..

Gone With The Wind

Can you forget a day,
Forget it ever happened? Just wish it all away?

Can’t I just hit pause, rewind and replay
Figure out how it all went wrong that day?

Never thought I’d end up like this
Picking myself up off the floor
And starting all over again

I wish the wind hadn’t blown that day
Maybe you’d have never walked away
You’d still be here with me
Holding me close, so tightly

Wish I could take it back
Take back all I said
But now that its over and done,
No one else left to blame
Let it all fall, bring on the rain

And I am standing here alone, all alone.

Touch

My hand hovers over his

An instant spark occurs,

How lovely it is to feel

The beauty that life occasionally spurs.

A single touch;

Slight grazing of his skin,

I am set ablaze,

My only salvation?

To touch his hand again.

I existed once, I think;

Mind, body, and soul,

But in his hands I melt away

Never to be discovered again.

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